Burned by my emotions again . . .
Once again my "gut" has betrayed me. I stopped out of CPA yesterday thinking that the market was starting to weaken. Why did I think it was weakening you innocently ask? Because everybody said it was, and I listened to them. Time and time again, I listen to the "chatter" and diverge from my trading plan. Has it ever worked better for me to trade that way, you ask? Um, no. Why do I still do it? You might think I do it because I'm an idiot. You are right.
I went to a free financial seminar a couple of weekends ago expecting a sales pitch and tidbits of worthless information. I came away from it with some new perspectives that challenged my thinking.
One of the concepts was about how the fear of losing financially hinders winning financially. You can see that played out in my daily experience. All of my mistakes have been driven by fear. There's always that lurking pit in my gut that today could be the day that the market drops 10% and I need to be out before it does. I think by always trying to position myself to miss the big loss I have kept myself from making more than enough gains to offset the difference.
Here's what I mean. Since January, I've been combining the results of two stock screens to choose my portfolio of stocks. One of those screens has made 42% YTD and the other has made 23% YTD. Averaged together that makes 32.5% (not taking commissions or spreads into account). Last Friday my portfolio was at about 27%--a 5.5% difference in 4.5 months. So, essentially, I've lost 5.5% in 4 months because I'm scared of losing--which is what I've done. If I keep on like this my screens will beat me by over 16% by the end of the year. That's a pretty high price to pay for letting my fear control my decision making.
I think once I am able to completely control my fear, I'll be able to make some really decent returns. The opportunities are out there, and I hope to be able to communicate to everyone out there that fear keeps us from succeeding in anything.
If you are interested in listening to the guys from the seminar you can stream their local radio show here.